True Colors Conference
I attended the True Colors Conference this past weekend and the experience was a bit more than I expected. I got loads of information from the various workshops, saw a drag show, saw "Good Asian Drivers" perform an awesome concert, and most of all I got to let my hair down and wear whatever I wanted without being terrified of people staring and me or smirking or whatever. I think seeing so many who are of the GLBT community assured me that I wasn't necessesarily the only one going through what I am now. I know in the back of my mind that the community is huge, active, pro-active, etc... but I guess I needed to actually experience being with the community and in the community to know how I fit into it.
There is still so much fear inside, but all in all the confidence is coming and the desire to be more out is growing.
I know that I am becoming more fed up with the hiding and shying away.
At the Conference Ball, I danced beyond my abillity and probably pushed the limits of my age, body, and metabolism, but all in all there was a great feeling in dancing with someone identified as lesbian. Labels don't matter much to me, but in the back of my mind I was thinking, we're just having fun and it doesn't matter who we are or what we are. If I was gay, she danced anyway. If I was straight, she danced with me anyway. Clearly she saw what I was wearing and how femme I was trying so hard to be, and thankfully she danced with me anyway. Which I think is what the Conference was about- going beyond labels to just plain ol' acceptance.